April 30th 6:20 pm
4 months of daily gratitudes done. It hasn’t been easy but just as Dr. Schwartz said I’m starting to find my way back to who I really am. I believe that because she’s a mom too she understands the different directions I’ve been pulled. This has helped me focus on what’s important… family… both nuclear and extended. Their love and support has helped me immensely.
May’s journal is done. I filled it with the paper Suz found the last time she was in Burlington. It’s smooth, almost glossy. It’ll be interesting to see if the watercolors bead up like they do in Todd’s moleskines.
April 30th 3:24 pm Lake Runnemede
Landscape class scheduled and after a long talk last night Todd and I agreed to enroll him in some sort of daycare/preschool thing this fall. That would give me more time… time for more art and maybe I’ll even go back to school and get that masters I’ve been dreaming of. So much to think about and decide. Life will change but I need to savor what I have now – Spring then Summer then Change.
April 29th 2:58 pm VINS
Thanks Todd! I can’t stop thinking about taking a class again! When I went to make my coffee I noticed T. had put AVA gallery’s summer schedule next to the machine with a big “GO!” in red marker next to the listings. I haven’t picked up a real brush in years. I’m not even sure where they are… I know I didn’t give them away. I’ll have to check the boxes in the basement. I’m looking at the 3 day Landscape watercolor class in August. Pricey! We could call it an early birthday present. But it’s in the middle of the week who could take E. if T. can’t get the time off. Why worry, T’s parents or Mom would come through.
April 28th 3:52 am night sky
I can’t sleep. It’s kind of early to be making my entry but it’s better than tossing & turning. I was so wrapped up in our family’s saga that I didn’t realize that Baltimore was burning ’till I turned on the late night news. What was supposed to be a peaceful protest has escalated to a full-blown riot. Looting and buildings on fire, there’s also talk of targeting police. I stand and watch Evan sleeping & Todd gets up to join me. Thanks for our peace.
April 27th 7:20 am Ompompanoosuc
It’s warm this morning, hard to believe the roads and bridges were so icy when the accident happened. It’s been tough, Mom & Sarah were there, but not me. I never got a chance for a proper good-bye. I’m thankful I’m here today with them. Mom says no matter what the doctors & EMS says, she believes he died here, not at the hospital. She sprinkled his ashes here, at least most of them. She still wears a little vial as a pendant. Love you Daddy.
April 26th 11:05 am Inuksuk
We’re doing a quick tour of Dartmouth campus before meeting up at Pine for brunch. I really like Elena, she has a quiet ease about her. I got up early with Evan & found Elena and mom chatting comfortably and having coffee at the kitchen table. Mom was telling her about the accident and how Daddy helped get those 2 boys out of the car. She had been crying and Elena was holding her hand. I’m so thankful for her kindness.
April 25th 4:12 pm Raven
Brad & Elena arrived just in time for lunch. Evan’s favorite, Annie’s mac n’ cheese. We didn’t expect them ’till later but that’s OK – we stretched two boxes with chopped tomatoes and broccoli. None of that green stuff for fussy Evan. The guys are out in the garage replacing the headlight, mom’s taking a nap and Evan has really taken to Elena. They’re in the green chair reading. I’m thankful for a few minutes to do this and take my shower. Claire & Tom will be here at 5… ish. They always run a few minutes late. We’ll see Sarah, Paul and the girls tomorrow.
April 24th 3:04 pm Hanover/Lebanon Line
When mom heard Brad & Elena were coming tomorrow she offered to come early so she could help with all the preparations. She arrived with her famous flourless chocolate cake for dessert… Thanks Mom! We planned out the rest of the dinner to allow for no-stress. Broiled pork tenderloin, steamed asparagus, quinoa and sliced tomatoes for color. I want some light munchies to serve with drinks but what? roasted nuts… boring.
April 23rd 4:32 pm Mount Ascutney
Woo-ee! Thank you! I don’t have to cook tonight. Todd came home early and now we’re sitting in the Staples parking lot in Claremont while he picks up a new printer… the W. Leb store didn’t have what he wanted. We’ll grab dinner at the Common Man before coming home. He didn’t have to ask twice, I love their Lobster Corn Chowder; that and a salad. mmmmm.
April 22nd 10:19 am Eagle’s Nest
I’m thankful for the break in the rain this Earth Day. We were able to get out for a walk, slower than I like because E. wouldn’t stay in the stroller. “I do!” he says “Walk!”. So walk he does… S-L-O-W-L-Y. Patience, I say as I see the clouds roll in. We got home just in time. It’s raining lightly now but it’s supposed to be drenching later. No use hanging the laundry out… I’ll have to use the dryer.
Skylark Karma 